I posted this letter to my Facebook page a few days ago. In the time since I have been taking stock, and now I am feeling better about the future. Sometimes the hardest thing is making a tough decision and then afterwards you can deal with it and move forward. The first thing I did after diagnosis was go out and take photographs, it calms me and fulfils me and after posting this I did the same thing.
Hope you are all well. Thank you for taking the time to read this letter.
After much procrastination, soul searching, defiance and eventual necessity I have decided to give up my studio shoots (not my outdoor shoots). I have been battling with kidney failure for a long time now, but I am now at the stage where dialysis is in my immediate future. I have been on the waiting list for a transplant for 18 months and if I lose any more kidney function I’ve been told I have to prepare for dialysis. The studio shoots are physical and involve a lot of heavy lifting, both before and after, and it is simply getting too much. I have been stubbornly resisting. But last night I was told that the studio space I rent has been sold and I need to vacate by the end of February. So, the decision has been taken out of my hands.
I had a look through the proofs from my shoots a couple of days ago and I was amazed to see just how many studio shoots I have photographed. It must be more than 500, which really makes me smile.
I will continue the outdoor shoots for as long as I can and I am now focusing on selling digital backdrops to other photographers and selling my stock images through image libraries.
Thank you so much for your continued support. I am not going anywhere just yet and now I need to look forward to a new chapter.
Many thanks always,